Me, Myself & I

[ Thursday, October 31, 2002 ]

Sorry guys that I have been away for so long...I have had games up the wazoo and class and practice and i'm sick on top of it all....plus i am in class while writing this so it is going to be short....I hope everyone is doing ok and i will write more later when i don't have a teacher breathing down my neck heehehehehehehe later!
Jessica [3:22 PM]

I guess what he said really was true....hmmmm

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Jessica [3:17 PM]

[ Tuesday, October 22, 2002 ]

Hey guys I know I haven't been posting sorry about that I will try to be better...Things are going really well and they are hectic at the same time oh well that is what happens at college around midterm and then registering for classes and everything....all the work is piling up....oh wells I will leave you with with a song that I love and well just read it...

Dido ~ Here With Me

I didn't hear you leave,
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing, it might change my memory
Oh, I am what I am, I'll do what I want, but I can't hide

I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me,
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot breathe
until you're resting here with me.....

I don't want to call my friends, they might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed, risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want, but I can't hide

I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot breathe
until you're resting here...

I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot breathe
until you're resting here with me...

Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want, but I can't hide

I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot breathe
until you're resting here.....

I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot breathe
until you're resting here with me..........
Jessica [12:32 AM]

[ Wednesday, October 16, 2002 ]

ooooo look i hit the right button this time YAY! lol i am such a fricken moron

Jessica [9:33 PM]

Ok i just wrote a long ass blog and oh what did i do i hit the sign out button instead of the post and publish one i swear i am such a dumb fuck sometimes lol...neways i am in a pretty good mood b/c i am going to be changing my major to forensic science which i have been wanting since i started but the college didn't offer it and now they are starting next fall so i have a shit load of courses to do in 2 years but i want it bad enough so i am soooo going for it....i hope everyone is doing ok leave me a message somewhere on here to let me know how you are doing and roe we are so going to party eventually lol me and tara just need to get our butts up there....this was soooo much longer before but i can't remember everything i wrote so i am gonna go and do my shit load of calculus homework and then a paper and then in the middle of all that i have a floor meeting and then i have to get up at the ass crack of dawn for practice aka 6am but thank god the season is winding down the bad part is that it is getting really hetic b/c of all the conference games coming up at once...and then all the school work b/c oh it is midterm and i am extremely excited about the fact that i am taking modern handguns next semester so all of you that have pissed me off recently watch out b/c i am learning how to shoot mwaaaahhhhhh hahahahhaa i am so evil and the best part is i know it 0>=) hehehehehe oh wells i need to go since oh ya my laundry is almost done! yay! DOH ugh well i hope everyone is doing good....ttyl MUAHS! :-*
Jessica [9:32 PM]

[ Friday, October 11, 2002 ]

It's not that I sont' have anything to say b/c Ihave a lot of things going on right now it's just I don't feel the need to put it up on here...I mean there are issues in my personal life and there are issues in school life and my athletic life ugh I wouldn't know where to begin and it would take too long to write everything out...

I am just not in the mood I guess....but I don't not want to post anything b/c I know people visit here and probably want to read something so I guess when I feel up to posting stuff you guys will get to read it....

I am glad though that I got to help tara out b/c being there for a friend in a rough time is what friends are suppsoed to do....what kind of friend would I be if I didn't want to help right :) It's good for you to know that you can always come to me and if you ever want to you can stay here too...ok well I am gonna go I am going home this weekend to work...I will talk to you guys later...
Jessica [4:05 PM]

[ Wednesday, October 09, 2002 ]

Hey I don't know how long this is going to be considering I am at work but you know whatever....I am confused about a lot lately...I don't know what is going on in my friend's lives I barley ever talk to anyone b/c I am either in class, at practice, at a game, sleeping or doing homework. Whenever I want to talk to certain people to see what is up they aren't on or have an away message up....what more can a person do....I don't know....everything is just so upside down...it's like being in a pool trying to find the surface it's dark and you can't see until you reach the bottom and realize you don't have enough air to make it up to the top....that is how I feel...I'm drowning....

Nothing seems real and everything seems fake who knows what is going on because I sure as hell don't and would loved to be filled in so i can find my way to the top of the surface with a little bit of air left....
Jessica [8:15 AM]

[ Monday, October 07, 2002 ]

I'm in this kinda mood....I know I haven't been posting b/c I don't know what to say right now I am in a confused state more later if I can find the words...

STONE SOUR ~ Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

[Solo: Corey]

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit
Jessica [7:23 PM]